When I Have None

When you needed me

I was always there

Somehow love

Made you my priority

But when in need

For hug and care

You were nowhere

Nowhere close

To even know

How I felt

And it panged my heart

And ached my head

Like a dessert

In thirst

With only

A mirage of an oasis

You were never there

When I needed you the most

And I could not help

But think how

Unfortunate I was

To only give

Never receive

What I needed the most

And this, you preached

Is what a man wants

From a woman

A heart that listens

And never complains

But I am only human

For pity’s sake

And I too need love

And care and a heart

That listens.

When you were Me

I breathed again

Consciously, the moment

I disengaged my mind

From you

And only then

I realized how much

You had grown in me

So much

That my body my mind

My arms and limbs

Felt heavy and sore

And all I could do

Was sigh and sleep

In that heaviness

Then suddenly

Sadhguru’s voice emerged

From memory

Fresh in my mind

And conversed with me

Told me that it was all in my mind

That my thoughts

I made them ‘I’

Let go, he said

Then you are free

Free then, as the mind

Only weighs in the fact

That you breathe in the

Here and Now

Not in the past

Or its memory

Suddenly I was cured

From all that misery

From the thoughts that

Made me think

I could not do without you

And ever since, I have found

My feet, my ground

And I swore

You will never

Take them away.